Lilitu

My spirit name is Lilitu. I'm also called Lilith.

Yes, I'm that biblical Lilith. I've also played Eve in the Garden of Eden. The apple was infected by Shaytan's venom.

Speaking of forbidden fruit, the original reference (that was changed when it was Christianized) was of the fruit in Tartarus, which is the proper name of the realm that Hades ruled. If one ate of the fruit of a certain tree in Tartarus, one was not allowed to leave Tartarus ever after.

Persephone ate of that fruit, hence the ancient Greeks' explanation for why winter comes. Her mother, Demeter, couldn't see her anymore, and so spread winter whilst away from her.

Samaël's TMG mode is also Hades mode. That, and Helios mode. I don't want to be dissonantly tied to him in marriage, but I would like to be his mate. I would like to be on an equal footing with him.

I have many spirit and life forms. I will list the goddesses first. Egyptian: Tefnut, Mut, Ma'at, first Hathor, Neith, Nephthys. Greek: Athena, Themis, Hestia (the basis for Cinderella), Ananke, Gaea, Styx, Asteria, Eris, Rhea, Mnemosyne, the nine muses, Aglaia. Mesopotamian: Lilitu (NEVER share your spirit name with dissonants who are assigning you to a goddess form; they will trap you), Inanna, Tiamat, Astart. Celtic: The Morrigan (Badb, Anand, Macha).

I will now list the past lives that are of historic significance. Psyche (I still hate being compared to Aphrodite, or even one who looks like her), Alcmene, Deianira, Daphne, Nefertiti, Rihanon, Morgause (Arthur's half-sister who later had his incestuous love-child; they got the names mixed up), Ileana (NOT Illona; those Turks mispronounce everything) Justina Szilagyi-Tepes.

Of all of my exes, I will list the ones (all of them) that Sam was. Ivan, Iven, Alejandro, Orlando, Julio and Wilber.

He has also been some of my teachers and professors.

He has never given up on me, in his way. I will never give up on him.

We have a spirit daughter together. As I've said, she's not a Nephilim. Our true forms are elfen forms. We are all 6'4" in those forms. I have black eyes, tan skin, and deep (blood) red hair. Sam has forest-green eyes, tan skin and black hair in his true form. When I give Sam children, they will be one male and one female fraternal twins. They will be our spirit daughter and her intended male twin who has yet to be born on any level.

I am Pagan. I am Egyptian Pagan. Yes, that's the religion that the ancient Egyptians practiced, even when Moses led his people out of slavery and to their own utopia. Sam converted me to Paganism as Iven. I never gave it up, but he sure did.

As Iven, he gave up Paganism and switched to Christianity.

As TMG, he gave up on Paganism and became an atheist. I guess it was the fact of my kidnapping and death, plus the fact that he was accused of killing me, which he didn't do. He gave up on being a dad, though, which makes me angry with him. He didn't have to go and try to kill himself, which made denying him custody of our own daughter relatively easy. No wonder she has a different last name.

She is lactose intolerant and has a gluten allergy. I wonder if it's because she didn't breast-feed from me. Would that I'd been there. Would that I'd been able to.

I was too busy trying to find a part of our daughter's in the void, then bringing myself back after hearing TMG playing the song, "Honey (Goldsboro)" and crying along to it. I was the cherub that showed up during that time.