Kayla McIntosh
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Personal tell-all pieces: Word of the Day and Jail Journal. Secret poet on the side. ( I don't use Ai to write any posts, everything is done manually. )
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The Attic
I had sort of a panic attack/breakdown; really wanting to leave the house I am currently in. I talked to Cass, a former patient of Cedar Hills I was locked up with, he convinced me that I should stay here until I save up the money to leave properly because it would be harder to figure myself out in foster care or a shelter.
By Kayla McIntoshabout a year ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 聖域
I told off my mom while her friend was at the house. I just locked the door after she tried to get on me. I refuse to talk to her more than necessary. My nieces also came over. I think the youngest one is pregnant so I guess they were wanting to talk about that. I think she was trying to record me as I was leaving the room, but maybe not? I just got done crying so, I went to the bathroom, because I don't have time for that right now.
By Kayla McIntoshabout a year ago in Confessions
What the hail?
Ugh, I woke up fine but I feel like I have nothing to go off of. My schedule is all topsy turvy and I am not sure how to proceed on a lot of things. My mom randomly told me I needed to babysit the dogs today and I am almost thinking of using that as an excuse to miss the appointment I have today for the vocational help.
By Kayla McIntoshabout a year ago in Confessions
Ai Bullshit
Last night I was so pissed because I was commenting on a Youtube tarot card reader's reading and saying it was bullshit he was using Ai for everything and talking about it possibly having consciousness and going forward with it in a "spiritual sense".
By Kayla McIntoshabout a year ago in Confessions
Inspiration cometh
It is still in the process of manifesting but, I am considering going back to some projects or to develop my resume and such that I complained about before to Kim. I mean, I can't tell someone I can do better than them and not have anything to show for it, otherwise I am trash. I unfortunately made my life a bit harder for that, but I do know that is completely within my ability to do so, its just about collecting enough energy to do that.
By Kayla McIntosh2 years ago in Confessions
Next steps
Today is Venus trine Jupiter: This transit could lead to a well-deserved income boost or a surge in your self-worth, given that sweet Venus, your ruler, is now in your daily routine and wellness sector as it connects with fortunate Jupiter in your money zone.
By Kayla McIntosh2 years ago in Confessions
Shit Morning
I wake up to a good morning from Jahon which was nice, but I feel like... I am feeling we don't work together well to be honest, or rather. We aren't working at all so I can't say it is bad or good because it is just non existent. I mean, he was trying to calm me down through text last night I guess but, all these events: the shitty vocational coach, my shitty boyfriend, my shitty family... I am so tempted to just go back to freelancing or try harder with freelancing despite the pay being so poor. It would wreck a lot of the plans I have now, but I am honest, the cold months are coming in and, with me not having a car, there is going to be less I am able to do physically going forward without money.
By Kayla McIntosh2 years ago in Confessions
Game on
I had a great conversation with my boyfriend last night. It was sort of born out of us both having sort of shitty days. He had to replace a tool at his work and the replacement ended up being the wrong fit so he just curled up into a ball and died. I was walking and a bug flew into my mouth and I puked into someone's lawn because I overthought eating a fucking bug and then when I got home I had the worst rash on my butt from walking too much. Just smothered myself in the zinc oxide stuff.
By Kayla McIntosh2 years ago in Confessions
